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Wednesday, April 12th, 2006
7:03 pm	This is the most accurrate diagnosis EVER... Disorder Your Score Major Depression: Slight Dysthymia: Very Slight Bipolar Disorder: Very Slight Cyclothymia: Slight-Moderate Seasonal Affective Disorder: High Postpartum Depression: N/A Take the Depression Test (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 20th, 2005
3:18 pm	~20 Questions to a Better Sense of Humor~ Sunny/Dark: 5/10 drY/Gross: 4/10 Traditional/Offbeat: 3/10 Active/Passive: 8/10 You are a SYT--Sunny Dry Traditional. This makes you a Sophisticate. You like conservative humor -- implied rather than explicit, and a well- timed eyebrow raise rather than a punchline. You're exactly the right kind of funny a well-bred hostess would want at her functions. You might be Jewish. You're not afraid of a risque joke -- you just don't often make them. This means that people may keep it squeaky clean around you, and that when you do work blue it's super too so funny. You're like Jon Stewart on that fake cover of the public domain Victorian erotica textbook in the back of America. You should get that book. You'll think it's funny as hell. You might like The Daily Show, Remember Wenn and when Hamlet says, "Do you think I meant country matters?" You would snigger thyself all the way to the buttery bar. Of the 3331 people who have taken this quiz, 26.7 % are this type. Your Active humor score of 8/10 means you are a comic house on fire. You are Def Comedy Jam (for the first five minutes, before it becomes repetitive and degrading). You are a library of witty rejoinders, in-jokes, ad-libs and meatballs. Yeah, I said meatballs. They're underrated. The trick for you is to ease yourself into a situation, since you have the capacity to dominate. If you're socially well-adjusted, you're awesome. If you're kind of nervous and twitchy like Daniel Radcliff in the Prisoner of Azkaban special features, then there can be trouble. (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 13th, 2005
5:35 pm	People loved me... For the last four days, I have taught a motivational workshop for a group of people who are unemployed. It has been rough and really took a lot out of me energy-wise. The group was very large. Normally, I like to learn the names of everyone who attends and learn a bit about them. I was just not able to do so for this group and I felt badly about that. The group this week was 35 very diverse people. Some were educated with college degrees. There were ex-business owners, counselors, loggers and welfare moms. Working with them, making them gel was a tough job. They really did click and participated well. Today, they brought me a present! They made a gift basket for me to say thanks for delivering the workshop to them. It was mostly little things that they could have found around the house. Candles. Lotions and bodysprays. A couple of homemade cookies. The monetary value does not matter. What does it that they thought enough of me and what I presented to them that they showed their appreciation. I don't think I have been touched like that by a group of supposed strangers before. It means a lot when people see that you are just doing your job, but they like what you are doing and how you are doing it. This group of people probably won't ever know how unmotivated and uninspired I have been feeling about work and my job recently. Something like this really helped remind me why I am doing what I am doing. Thank you to all of you. It means more than you will know. When we start the workshop, I have them meet and introduce each other. I preface it by saying that they are about to make and get to know a new friend. This week, I made 35 new friends of my own... (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 5th, 2005
1:40 pm	I need to read more about this later... Emi, the body type you were born with is called Kapha in Ayurvedic medicine. This means that most likely your bone structure is on the larger side and your metabolism tends to be slow. Your constitution leads us to believe that you are generally both calm and content. A key component to an Ayurvedic lifestyle is to eat, live and interact with the world according to your natural body type. In relation to eating, Kapha types should be eating foods that taste sweet, sour, or salty. Since you gravitate towards mint sorbet over lime or mango sorbet, we can tell that you're choosing some foods that are best for your Kapha body type. (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 30th, 2004
3:43 pm	I love the onion... Area Mom Freaking Out For No Reason Again (Comment on this)
9:28 am	Miscellaneous me... DREAMS... I have been having strange, vivid dreams recently. I did not enjoy last night. Horrific images of people I knew in dreamland who were injured or were hurting themselves or others. At one point, I was in a dirty, dingy apartment that belonged to someone that I knew very well but never named. I was rifling through the closets and drawers looking for something. I looked out the window and someone was taking telescopic pictures of me in the apartment. Someone, a man I know in the dream but can't identify while I am awake, comes in and tries to kiss me. I rebuke him. He has an injured foot that is wrapped in a bloody bandage. I continue rifling through the closets and hear a scream. He has lit himself on fire; is trying to kill himself. The last vision of him that I have is at the hospital, he is horribly burned but is still alive. Suddenly, I was shopping in a mall and kept seeing people that I knew. Lisa was there with her kids in a store similar to Target. Mom and dad were on the escalator, I didn't see their faces but recognized one of mom's ugly t-shirts. Then I saw Grandma with a woman that she introduced as some sort of cousin or aunt. This woman had to be at least 7 feet tall. This was in JC Penney. Then I am in the Bon looking for a new purse and I am all alone. I fall asleep in a dressing room and awaken on a floating spaceship kind of thing. It is set on a grid like an old-school video game. I am below and am shooting people off and pulling them off the grid so that they float in space forever. A TV crew is filming me but there is nowhere for them to transmit their feed since we are floating in space. Finally, everyone tips off the structure and we all float off forever. We don't really seem to live or die, we just float there without purpose or direction. I remember being upset because there was plenty of food and we could have survived on the structure for a long long time. Right before I woke, I discovered that someone was watching all of this on TV, ala the Truman Show. Weird. Tsunami... I am still so sad and horrified by what I am seeing on the news. It is horrific and terrifying and I feel so much empathy for the people impacted. More maybe for those who lived even than those that died. Tsunami Death Toll Jumps Over 120,000 Miscellaneous... I have 95 movies on my blockbuster waiting list. It will take me years to watch all of those. A good proportion of them are new or coming releases but there are also some classics or movies that I have missed somewhere along the way. Watched more of Buffy, Season One last night. It is really quite good. I can see why it developed such a following. The characters are well drawn-even in early shows. I like a lot. Well, I have rambled and slacked enough over the first 90 minutes of work. I should play productive and earn my keep for a while now. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 29th, 2004
8:56 am	You're Olivia Benson! Which Law & Order: SVU character are you? brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 28th, 2004
4:42 pm	I hate the word blog... I have come to hate the word blog. Once something becomes mainstream enough that my 94 year-old grandmother knows what it means, then it has usually been overused. I think back to the time when she told me she had to go because "Melrose" was on...the show was canceled the same season. And that was what, 10 years ago? Anyway, dear grandma asked me to set up one of those new blog things for her so she can tell everyone about her life. Quite progressive, she is. I would hate to think about what she would write on a blog of her own. Yikes. I feel sad today. It is just devastating that they are projecting 80,000 people will have died in Asia from the Tsunami. So sad. I am afraid that the worst is still to come for some of those people. There is no way that there can be sufficient fresh water or food. You see civilians, tourists, carrying the bodies of the dead. I hear that they are burying the dead with their bare hands. Yet locally, the poster child for survival in Asia is Oprah's decorator. I understand that that news channels are attempting to make the tragedy personal for the American people, but Oprah's decorator as the hero? Please. What does that say about us as a culture? Are we so unable to picture the grief and horror and despair that we need a familiar, white face upon it to make it personal and emotionally connected. I have never been to any of the areas impacted, yet I feel a huge amount of sadness for those who are impacted. There are bodies floating in the water. The horror of this. Even it you cannot connect with this, emotionally, I'm sure that people will understand that corpses will destroy what little water they have left. The sanitation and burial process is horrific. Those poor, poor people. I remember when the towers fell on September 11th. My brother who was 13 at the time could not understand why people were so upset. He could not make a personal connection with the horror. He lacked the maturity to understand. Yes, he recognized that a horrible thing had happened but did not understand the magnitude of the event. After all, we live in Washington, all the way across the United States from New York. They didn't attack us, they attacked New Yorkers. Anyway, enough social commentary for one day. Peace (Comment on this)
10:57 am	Christmas is over, thank god!!! I was so excited about the holidays this year. I baked. I prepared. I decorated my house, and mom's and helped grandma with hers. What. A. Letdown. This was possibly the worst holiday in recollection. No, I take that back. Parts of it were awful. I felt lonely and sad at times. But it had good points too. As always, most of the bad times centered souly around my ass of a brother. They gave me a gift that really hurt my feelings and made me cry. It was a book that deals extensively with a nasty, depressed person whose only goal seems to be to commit suicide. Eventally, she is given a lobotomy and is cured. In other words, just happy Chirstmassy fare. I cried all the way home after opening that cheap, bargain basement book. I have thought about it quite a bit since then and have decided that it wasn't deliberate, it was just thoughtless. That is a process which is much more consistent with my brother anyway. I really doubt that he lacks the thought process or the literary chops to have any idea what he gave me. Instead, he saw a book which had a clearance tag on it, decided that his sister is worth about $6.99 and bought away. The thoughlessness also hurts, especially when I spend so much time choosing gifts that I think the person will really enjoy. It hurts almost as much as the first wound of insult did. Bastard ruined my holiday with his lack of care. They also ruined my day after Christmas. I watched their kids while they went to a Seahawks game for 15 hours on Sunday. The did not bother to leave shoes for thier boys. They were hidden somewhere. I was stuck in mom and dad's house for 15 hours with two boys who were fighting or crying for 90% of the day. They were coming off a holiday high of presents and candy and other happy things and were beyond rotten. I was so exhausted and I didn't get to go shopping to see the after Christmas sales. Sucked. And my thoughless bastard of a brother didn't even bother to thank me. Bah, humbug. I think I'll fly off to somewhere sunny by myself next year and skip all of this. (Comment on this)
Monday, December 20th, 2004
8:26 am	Weekend's over, short week ahead... I don't feel much like working this week. My throat aches and I feel kind of blech.  And totally unmotivated.  Something needs to change here.  It is the job, or is it me?  Why do I always do so well for the first year in a new job then get bored and start to just slide into obscurity?  What is wrong with me?  Am I really that Gen Xish?  I remember lots of articles around the time when I graduated from college.  People from my generation are easily bored, hard to motivate and generally slackers if I recall correctly.  Highly intelligent but unwilling to use the brains God gave them. I am a little sad to say that it kind of sounds like me.  Once the challenge in something is gone, I find that it is difficult to keep myself motivated. Not only here, in past jobs as well.  Jay and his family were here this weekend.  I sure do love those boys.  Taylor is just too fun to be around.  Mahkai amuses me even though he is a fairly rotten kid.  Jay and Kari, I could pretty much do without most of the time.  Jay's 29th birthday was this weekend.  He didn't want anything that was in normal, reasonable price ranges so it made it very difficult to purchase anything for him.  He asked mom and dad for money so they could buy the kids Christmas presents.  The boys are two and three, they will not remember who bought what or what they got for Christmas at all in a month.  They don't need to stress so much. Pride is damaging for them.  They have decided to buy a $500 Powerwheel for the boys to share.  If you can afford that, you aren't hurting too much.  Conspicous consumption and American materialism are rampant.  These two kids will be just as happy with a cardboard box, a roll of tape and a stick to poke their brother with.  Forget about fancy, extravagent gifts.  It just won't matter and will set a bad precedent for the future.   Ok, that's enough bitching and social commentary for now.  Do something.  You are being paid for sitting on your ever-spreading white collar butt all day! (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 16th, 2004
2:03 pm	Yay again!!! Mariners: Beltre coming to Safeco (Comment on this)
10:03 am	Things that are just wrong...! Hung for the Holidays Lap Pillows Why do both of these creepy things have to do with Asian men?  Yich. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 15th, 2004
3:37 pm	Yay yay yay!!! Sexson agrees to contract with Seattle (Comment on this)
Friday, December 10th, 2004
11:36 am	I want a pair of these... All too often, big girls do not get to wear styish clothing.  Especially name-brand clothing.  I think I am having a Jr. High flashback by lusting after these jeans.  Guess this is payback for never fitting in to those tasty Guess jeans with the acid wash and zippers on the ankles.  Do I need a pair of Seven7 jeans?  No.  Can I afford them before Christmas? No.  Will I buy them and put them on my credit card anyway?  You bet your ass.  I am so materialistic. (Comment on this)
11:30 am	Today's disgruntled words of office wisdom... Most people don't quit their job, they quit their supervisor. (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 9th, 2004
4:55 pm	Ha! (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 2nd, 2004
4:54 pm	Locus of control... Locus of Control Test Results Internal Locus (66%) Individual believes that their life is defined more by their decisions and internal drive. External Locus (34%) Individual believes that their life is defined more by genetics, environment, fate, or other external factors. Take Free Locus of Control Test personality tests by similarminds.com (Comment on this)
4:52 pm	Maslow is pretty much right... Maslow Inventory Results Physiological Needs (20%) you appear to have everything you need to survive physically. Safety Needs (20%) you appear to have a very secure environment. Love Needs (67%) you appear to be unhappy with the quality of your social connections. Esteem Needs (50%) you appear to have a medium level of skill competence. Self-Actualization (60%) you appear to have an average level of individual development. Take Free Maslow Inventory Test personality tests by similarminds.com (Comment on this)
4:48 pm	Freud me... Freudian Inventory Results Oral (56%) you appear to have a good balance of independence and interdependence knowing when to accept help and when to do things on your own. Anal (56%) you appear to have a good balance of self control and spontaneity, order and chaos, variety and selectivity. Phallic (30%) you appear to have negative issues regarding sexuality and/or have an uncertain sexual identity. Latency (50%) you appear to have a good balance of abstract knowledge seeking and practicality, dealing with real world responsibilities while still cultivating your abstract and creative faculties and interests. Genital (46%) you appear to be somewhere between a progressive/openminded and regressive/closeminded outlook on life. Take Free Freudian Inventory Test personality tests by similarminds.com (Comment on this)
4:26 pm	Personality Testing... Advanced Big 45 Personality Test Results Gregariousness ||||||||| 30% Sociability |||||| 18% Assertiveness |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86% Poise ||||||||||||||| 50% Leadership ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Provocativeness |||||||||||||||||| 54% Self-Disclosure ||||||||| 30% Talkativeness |||||||||||| 34% Group Attachment |||||||||||| 34% Extroversion ||||||||||||||| 44% Understanding |||||||||||||||||| 58% Warmth |||||||||||||||||| 58% Morality |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Pleasantness |||||||||||||||||| 54% Empathy |||||||||||||||||| 58% Cooperation ||||||||||||||| 46% Sympathy |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Tenderness ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Nurturance ||||||||||||||| 50% Friendliness |||||||||||||||||| 59% Conscientiousness |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 82% Efficiency |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Dutifulness ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Purposefulness |||||||||||||||||| 54% Organization |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Cautiousness |||||||||||| 34% Rationality ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Perfectionism |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Orderliness ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Orderliness ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Stability ||||||||||||||| 42% Happiness |||||||||||||||||| 58% Calmness ||||||||||||||| 50% Moderation |||||||||||| 38% Toughness ||||||||||||||| 50% Impulse Control |||||||||||||||||| 58% Imperturbability ||||||||||||||| 50% Cool-headedness ||||||||| 26% Tranquility |||||||||||| 34% Emotional Stability ||||||||||||||| 45% Intellect ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% Ingenuity ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% Reflection ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Competence |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Quickness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Introspection |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Creativity |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Imagination ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Depth ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% Openmindedness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 71% Take Free Advanced Big 45 Personality Test personality tests by similarminds.com (Comment on this)